who knows what could happen

I woke up this morning realizing I'm not a kid anymore! How'd that thought freak me out of my bed, directly looking myself in the mirror trying to figure out what I'm all about and what will I be in 10 years time? Where will I be? Till when will I walk around with my hands thrown up in the air, cause I just don't care? I can't ever run and hide. I won't close my eyes anymore. This is reality. I need to plan things in my life. Though I know it's gonna be hard but I need to try. I can't believe I'm only realizing these important point in life where I should be serious in what I do. Is this what they would call it a turning point? Maybe I'm just going with the flow of time to think about life in a different way.
Why, oh why am I still doing nothing? jobless, not continuing my study, and lingers around with a routine which is "NOTHING"
and I feel so useless! I need something good to rely on, something for me. I can't continue being 'nothing' cause I'm not in Kindergarten no more. Where you didn't have anything to worry about, you have your parents to settle things out and figure what you need to do. You can even play all day long if that's what you prefer. no worries at all. but, we all became older as time pass by and  things change.

p/s:
Who knows what could happen? Do what you do, just keep on laughing, one thing's true, There's always a brand new day. So, you do go and make it happen!