pouring my heart out~

Time goes by as if it was only yesterday i sat on the bed alone staring at the phone. now, i'm going back reminiscing few weeks back when I enjoyed laughing and crying. those moments that flies like shooting stars. life's simple, it's things that revolve around us and the way we handle it makes it complicated. i'm trying to find the right words here to pour my heart out, cause there're so many things going on now and i'm overwhelmed.

Way back when:

10/09/2010 > celebrated my "Hari Raya Aidilfitri" at Kundasang, Ranau. not many photos were taken, just few so here:

From left back: ajiri, bulan, delipin
front: apis, me

LOL!

wonderful friends~

with Slice of Pizza, my sweethearts <3

Happy hour! at Apis's jamming room

I spent 10 days in Kundasang, Ranau. Enjoying every minute of it. On the 2nd day of "hari raya", I went to Poring, Ranau. Thought it was gonna be fun, but the place was too crowded so wasn't really comfortable with all the 'people' around. anyway, on the 3rd day of 'hari raya' i went back to stay in Kundasang. I prefer being there. I love the weather, the food, friends, and the view is superb! no words i could fine to describe. being there makes me realize how wonderful it is to be around nature <3

It's a new day in Kota Kinabalu. Things are different. I just celebrated my 18th birthday yesterday, 20th September. I had a great night spent with friends enjoying and had a blast! beers, karaoke, sing along, dancing, funny stories sharing, 'drunk act' and laughs was enough as a gift for me. Since I was 14, I stopped celebrating but I guess turning 18 is different? LOL!

Apart of all the fun i was having, i got dump! i don't know what could be worse than got yourself dump on your birthday? still, what could be best? gotta keep on  thinking from different perspective. i do feel upset, but i need to be moving forward. maybe it's for the better. we weren't meant for each other and so being parted is the best for both sides. i just hope it won't be, "he said, she said". i admit i do make mistakes it wasn't fully his fault neither do mine. still, i don't want anymore GUILT TRIP! enough said.

and now, I'm hoping for a better tomorrow. nobody knows what's written for tomorrow so i'm crossing my fingers and will find a way for a better day (: